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第46章 镜中的女人 1（第1页）

第46章镜中的女人（1）

TheWomanintheMirror

佚名Anonymous

WhenIwas11，IfoundoutIhadabraintumor。Ihadsurgerytoremoveit，butthesizeandloorcausedmyoptiervetoatrophy。Forthreeyearsafterartialsight，butmyophthalmologisttoldmethateventuallyIwouldgoblind。Attheendofmy14thyear，doelegallyblindandsaidtherewasnothingthatcouldbedone。Ihada5percethetumor，andIdid，butsomehowIeverdealwiththefactthatIwasgoingbliobehaveasifeverythifihappened，Iwasdevastated。

MydadleftuswhenIwas5，andItookthatreallyhard。Becauseofthat，andbecauseIwasblindontopofit，mygreatestfearwasthatnoooloveme，thatIwetmarriedandhavekidsandafulllife。Iwasafraidofbeingalone，aiswhatIthoughtbli。

Teer，onNov。16oflastyear，Iwasgdinneraokissmyguidedog，Ami。Ilostmybalamyheadontheycoffeetableahefloor。Itwasn’tunusual。Whenyouareblind，youhityourselfallthetime。Igotup，finishedmakingdinobed。

WhenIwokeup，Icouldsee。Lightwasingthroughmywindow，aainsweredrawn。Ofcourse，Iwasshocked，butlikewhenIlostmysight。Therewasabigmirrorinmybedroom，butIdidn’tlookatmyselfrightaway。Iwaouto。Idonotlookgoodinthem，andIdidn’twaened。AsIwasshhtmyrefledjustthatleftmespeechless，really。

&imeIsawmyself，Ihadshorthair，apaleplexiohatdidn’tshowbecauseIhadsuchlighteyebrowsandeyelashes。Ilookedawful，likeateenagegirl，Isuppose。Now，allofasuddehatitwastrueletoldme，thatIwasanattraaoodinfrontofthemirror，Ireayface。ThatwaswhatIhadbeendoingfor10years—itwashowIuood—soitulse。ItwasnotuntilIsawmyselfthatIrealizedhowmuchmymemoryhadfadedofthingsIoncecouldsee。ItwasaboutfourhoursbeforeItoldaayedwithAmi。Welookedateachotherasideintheyard。Ijustwaobealoakeitin。Itwassomuch。

&rahingwasthatIkwasgoingtohappen。Aboutaweekbefore，IwaswalkingAmiandsuddenlysawbluedotsinfrontofmylefteye，theoneIwainmysightin。ItoldmymumbecauseIfounditfunny；bluehadbeenmyfavoritedwastheeasiestetoseeartialsight。Itookitasasign。

Peopledomedifferentlynoayspletelyi。IlivedinAuewZealand，inmyownflatwithmydog。Iartiesandgog。Iwouldlisteofthemusidgoeforthebest。Whenyrabyouandpointyouiioheyareactuallyoverthere，thatiswhenyourememberyou’reblind。

Ialsolovedmovies。Goingtothemoviesblindwaslikesomeoellingyreatsous，andyoumakeupalltheimagesinyourhead。Ihaven’tbeenbaceIregainedmysight。ButI’vebeeoseemyfavoritesoap，“Shortla”。AookoutmagazinesaPamelaLeeAndersonandBradPitt。Thebiggestsurpriseitt。Ijustthought，whatwaseveryonegoingonabout？Thebestwasseeingmyboyfrieheferryover，ahemomentIsawhim。HewasassexyasIhadimagined。