TextAPrefacetos
LuXun
TranslatedbyYangHsien-yiandGladysYang
[1]WhenIwasyoungI,too,hadmaofthemcametotten,butIseenothinginthistret。Fhregthepastmaymakeyouhappy,itmaysometimesalsomakeyoulohereisnopointinginspirittolonelybygonedays。However,mytroubleisthatIpletely,aorieshaveresultedfromwhatIhavebeeoerasefrommymemory。
[2]FormorethanfouryearsIusedtogo,almostdaily,toapawoamedieshop。IberhowoldIwastheerinthemedieshopwasthesameheightasI,andthatinthepawwicemyheight。Iusedtohariothetertwicemyheight,takethemohpt,thengototheterthesameheightasItobuymediyfatherwhohadlongbeenill。Ourherthingstokeepmebusy,forsihephysiadeoutthepressn,heusedunusualdrugs:alupinwinter,sugar-ethathadbeenthreeyearsexposedtofrost,twis,andardisia。。。allofwhichweredifficulttoprocure。Butmyfather’sillfrombadtoworseuntilhedied。
[3]Ibelievethosewhosinkfromprosperitytopovertywillprobablye,intheprocess,touandwhattheworldisreallylike。IwaotheKsperhapsbecauseIwasinsearchofageofsdfaces。Therewasnothingformymothertodhtdollarsfexpenses,andsayImightdoasIpleased。Thatshecriedwasonlynatural,foratthattimetheprwastostudytheclassidtaketheofficialexaminatioudied“fs”waslookeddownuponasafellowg,who,outofdesperation,wasforcedtosellhissndevils。
[4]Besides,shewassorrytopartwithme。Buti,IwenttoheKsditwastherethatIheardforthefirsttimethenamesofsuchsubjeaturalsce,arithmetic,geography,histandphysiing。Theyhadnophysiologycourse,butoodblosofsuchworksasAheHumanBodyandEssaysoryandHygiehetalkaionsofphysisIhadknoarih,Icametothethosephysismustbeeitherunwitties;aosympathizewiththeinvalidsandfamilieswhosufferedattheirhands。FromtraoriesIalsolearheJapaiioagreatextent,withtheintroduofWesternmedicetoJapan。
[5]TheseinklingstookmetoaprovincialmedicalJapaifuldreamthatooaIwouldcurepatieher,whohadbeenwroed,whileifwarbrokeoutIwouldserveasanarmydoctor,atthesametimestrengtheningmyen’sfaithiion。
[6]Idonotknowwhatadvahodsareoreachmicrobiology,butatthattimelanternslideswereusedtoshowthemidifthelededearly,theinstruightshowslidesofnaturalseryorofillupthetime。ThiswasduringtheRusso-JapaneseWar,sothereweremanywarfilms,andIhadtojoininthegahelecturehallalongwiththeotherstudents。ItwasalongtimesinceIhadseenanypatriots,butonedayIsawafilmshowingsomeese,oneofwhomwasbouhersstoodaroundhim。TheywereallstroappearedpletelyapathetigtotheehhishandsboundywfortheRussians,whowastohavehisheadcutoffbytheJapaaryasawarningtoothers,whiletheesebesidehimhadetoeacle。
[7]BeforethetermwasoverIhadleftforTokyo,becauseafterthisfilmIfeltthatmediportahepeopleofaweakandbackwardtry,haheymaybe,lyservetobemadeexamplesof,ortowitnesssuchfutilespectaditdoeserhowmanyofthemdieofillimportantthing,therefore,wastogetheirspirit,atimeIfeltthatliteraturewasthebestmeanstothiseopromotealiterarymovement。ThereweremasinTokyostudyinglaw,politice,physidchemistry,evenpiudyiureorart。However,eveninthisumosphereIwasfortuofindsomekis。Wegatheredthefewothersweneeded,andafterdisourfirststep,ofcourse,ublishamagazileofwhiotedthatthiswasah。Aswewerethenratherclassied,wecalleditXinSheng(NewLife)。
[8]Wheimeforpublidrewnear,someofourtributorsdroppedout,andthenourfuhdrawn,untilfinallytherewereonlythreeofusleft,andwewerepenniless。Siartedazianunluckyhour,therewasnaturallyowhomweplainwhelaterevehreeweredesti,andourdisfuturehadtocease。SoehisabortiveNewLife。
[9]OnlylaterdidIfeelthefutilityofitall;atthattimeIdidnotreallyuandanythiifaman’sproposalsmetroval,itshoulden;iftheymetwithopposition,itshouldmakehimfightback;buttherealtragedyforhimwastoliftuphisvoigthelivihnorespoherapprovalnoropposition,justasifhewerelefthelplessinabou。SoIbegantofeellonely。
[10]Andthisfeelingoflonelinessgrewdaybyday,gaboutmysoullikeahugepoisoinspiteofmyunatablesadnoindignation;forthisexperiencehadmademerefledseethatIwasdefiheheroictypewhocouldrallymultitudesathiscall。
[11]However,myloobedispelled,foritwasgmeagony。SoIusedvariousmeanstodullmysehbyiofthetimeandturnierIexperieerlonelinessandsadness,whiotliketorecall,preferringthatitshouldperishwithme。StillmyattempttodeadeunsuccessfulIhadlosttheenthusiasmandfervourofmyyouth。
[12]Iherewerethreeroomswhereitwassaidawomanhadlivedwhohahelocusttreeiyard。Althoughthetreehadgrownsotallthatitsbranchesoloheroomsremaied。ForsomeyearsIstayedhere,ss。Ihadfewvisitors,therewerenopolitisorissuesiions,andmyomylifeshouldslipquietlyawaylikethis。hts,wheoomanymosquitoes,Iwouldsituree,wavingmyfanandlookingatthespeckshthethickleaves,whilethecaterpillarswhichcameoutintheeveningwouldfall,iyneck。
[13]Theonlyvisitortoeforanoaltalkwasmyoldfriend-yi。Hewouldputhisbigportfoliodowable,takeoffhislonggown,andsitfagme,lookingasifhisheartwasstillbeatingfastafterbravingthedogs。
[14]“Whatistheuseofgthese?”hedemandedinquisitivelyo,afterlhtheinssIhadcopied。
[15]“all。”
[16]“Thenwhy?”
[17]“Fornoparticularreason。”
[18]“Ithinkyoumightwritesomething。。。”
[19]Iuheywereeditingthemagazih,buthithertothereseemedtohavebeeion,favourableorotherwise,aheymustbefeelinglonely。Ho>
[20]“Imagineanirowindows,absolutelyiible,lefastasleepinsidewhowillsoondieofsuffo。Butyoukheywilldieintheirsleep,theywillhepaih。Nowifyoucryaloudtowakeafewofthelightersleepers,makiunatefewsuffertheagonyofirrevocabledeath,doyouthihemagoodturn?”
[21]“Butifafewawake,you’tsaythereisroyingtheironhouse。”
[22]True,inspiteofmyown,Iotblotouthope,forhopeliesiure。Iyowehisassertionthatitmightexist。SoIagreedtowrite,awasmyfirststory,AMadman’sDiary。Fromthattimeonwards,I,andwouldwritesomesortofshortstoryfromtimetotimeattherequestoffriends,untilIhadmorethahem。
[23]Asformyself,Inolongerfeelaoexpressmyself;yet,perhapsbecauseIhavetenthegriefofmypastloneliness。Isometimescallout,tethosefightersingonihattheydo。Whethermycryisbraveorsad,repellentorridiculous,Idonotcare。However,siisas,Imustnaturallyobeymygeneral’sorders。ThisiswhyIofteoinnuendoes,aswhehappearfromheson’sgraveinMedie,whileinTomorrowIdidnotsaythatFourthShan’sWifehadnodreamsofherlittleboy。Forourchiefsthepessimism。AndI,formypart,didnotwahelonelinessIhadfoundsobitterthoseyoungpeoplewhowerestilldreamidreams,justasIhaddonewhenyoung。
[24]Itisclear,then,thatmyshortstoriesfallfarshortofbeingworksofart;hemyselffortuheyarestillknownasstories,andareevenbeingpiledihoughsuakesmeuneasy,Iamhelesspleasedtothinktheyhavereadersintheworldofmeimebei。
[25]Sioriesreprintediion,owingtivenabove,IhavethetitleNaHan(s)。
December3,1922,Peking
[1972]
Notes
1。LuXun(1881-1936):Afiwriter,essayist,andcritiwasoheleadiersofthe2duripolitical,sodliterarya,hewasassociatedwithaerarymoveme,LuXunisownforhisstories,whichhavebeentraomorethanadozenlanguages。Healsoproducedsixteenvolumesofessays,reminisces,prosepoetry,historicaltales,somesixtyclassical-stylepoems,adozenvolumesofscholarlyresearumeroustranslations。
2。YangHsien-yi(1915-2009):He,oainandgotfamiliarwiththeBritishculturalaureainintrodueseculturetotheEnglishwladysYang(1919-1999):ShewasaBritishwhowasborninBeijingandwasalsoveryiediure。Itwastheiofeseculturethatbroughtthemtogether。Theyareaslatingandtheirsucdsatisfactorycooperationhasproducedfruitfulproductsoftranslation,amongwhichareTheScholars(《儒林外史》),ADreamofRedMansions(《红楼梦》),aeWorksofLuXun(《鲁迅全集》),etc。