第4章在行路中遇见自己(3)
OnthiswaningautumhenorthernMainela,pelling,shadowedhereandtherebypuffsoffair-weathercumulus,remnantsofsummer。Here,adozeofWaldoboro,Iomysummersfromtheageof12to14atohoseIndian-namedboys’camps—mothahinkabout。
Istandontherisewasohebaseballdiamond。Thtistheblackoak,severalhundredyearsold,besidewhichweusedtoholdhtcampfires。Howma-heavyAugustdayshaveIstoodonthisriselookiheetowardthehills?Formeitwasalrospect,theausteretrysidestretgawaywiththesharpdefinitionofauryaquatintacrosshillandwoodlandtoMt。Battieoutlithehorizon。AtourcampfireeveheredarouoakjustaftersuBattiewithoutlosiionwouldtakeonablueluminosity。
&heyearsaraggedsed-groenandbirdspeckledalder,atthefaredgeofthebaseballdiamond,hasblottedoutthatview。hihtheeskybuttheuopsofsed-growthtrees。Alreadytheskyhasbeguhesteeliertintsofwitiehasdisappeared。
Onsultryafterheairquiveredinthedfadinglightofearlyeveniaheoldoakandlookoutainterludeofsdsfromwhichseveralmilesaway,ahillemerged。Asahillitwasinsignifiough。Belowitsbaresummitaurelaydottedwithgrougsofgrahingaboutthathilldrewme,bee,ailes。Iotbeartotakemyeyesfromit,Ikhatbeforesummeregotoit,makemywayoverthepasture,upanduppastshrubailIstoodo。ItwassomethingIhadtodo。Iotexplainwhy。Ididnotevenaskmyself。
Notthatitwaseasytogetawayfromingandafternoon,ouractivitieswerereaselor’snotebook。Wehadtobeswimmingtennisorbaseballatratoffonnaturewalkssomegadgetiryshop—justsolongaswedidsomething。Buttodonothing,toclimbahillforhatwasoutsidetherules,againstthe“campspirit”。
Saturdayafternoons,withtheirinfluxofparentsandvisithtarelaxation,lessatability。Ononesudvividafternooogettomyhill。Fromthegreatoak,Icouldseeitssummitaheadofme,unknown,inviting。Inspicuously,Iedgedalongthebaseballfield,theheunderbrush。
Itwashardgoing,hardtokeepasenseofdiresugleofvihicket。Istumbleds,steppedintoanthills。Marshhillocksgavewayu,deadbranaggedme,pricklyseedsworkedisheairwasstagnant。Withmosquitandhover-fliesganddarting,Iploddedon,losingmyselfandlosingtrae。
Imusthavebeenstrugglingonforatleastanhour。Sudde,anopengroveofashandmaple,afilteredthroughtheleaves。Isawinfroeroforivehhtlypaintediyofedwithscrollsandscallopedshihnarrow,high-pitchedroofs,eaorethananarm’slengthfromthe,ay。Therewasnosignofanylivingbeing。
Tfromthewood,thesunlitgrovewaslikesomethingoutofGrimm,asifthisoddlittlevillagehadbeenputunderaspellandhadbeenasleepfor100years。Ayellowhouseinfrohablue-lattitporchcouldhavebeenwaitingforHanselael。Soquietthegrovewas,sostilltheair,thateventheaspenleaveshunglimp。Blueandgreendragonflies,poisedintheair,addedtothee。Faroff,Icouldheartheichofayellowwarblerandalobuzz。Otherwisesilence。
&upontheporchofapinktrimmedhouseahroughthesinglerosaiough—aroomleofchairs,atable,acoup。Aladderledupstairstoasleepingloft。Thegrovewasamystery。Whywerethoselittlehousesthere?Whyweretheyemptyahesametimecaredfor?Whoowwaseerietoseetheseminiatureshuddledtainstallthatspace。IhalfexpeeguardiantoutaIwasdoingthere。
Isupposemyentedvillagewassomesortofcampmeetingground,usedafewweekseachsummer。Ineverdidfindout。OnthatafternoonIdidhesun’srayswerealreadyslanting,theshadowslonger,andmyhillstilllayaheadofme。Agaiheunderbrush,breakingthroughatlasttoaruttedroadscoredwithpuddles。Butatthefirstturhefootofthehill,myhill,openahelengthenedsuhinmeadowgrasshadturnedbrowhatohepasturehadfallenapart,aymulleihrustiheboulders。UpIwent,raniteledgeandaeaddownhardhadmeadowsweetinmyhurrytogettothetop。