第37章昔为人子,今为人父(1)
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&ereveningasIsatreading,myyoungson,Luke,approachedmyshysileoodjustoutsidethehalf-moonoflightmadebyanoldbrassstudentlampIcherish。Itoorfather’sofficedesk。
Inthosedays,Lukelikedtoapproachmewithhismostseriousproblemswheheyearbefore,hedidthiswheneverIwaswinthegarden。Perhaps,hefeltmostateasewithdifficultieswhenIwasdoiiodo。Wheerestedingrowingthioplantseedsaheminthegroundinsteadofdiggiheverymtoseeiftheyhadgroasbeginohimself—althoughhewouldn’tadmittomethathecoulddothat。
Ilookedupfrommypaper,andhegavemehiswide-opengrin。Thenhisexpressiolyserious,anot-timitationofme。“Ibrokemysaw,”hesaid,withdrawioyfrombehindhisback。“Here。”
&askifIcouldfixit。HistrustthatIcouldlimentfromasmallboytothemiraclefixeroftricycles,wagonsahesaw’sblueplastidlehadsher,whotreasuredthetoolsofallprofessions,wouldnothaveapprovedofaplastidledsaw。
Isaid,“Therearepieg。Doyouhavethem?”
Heopenedhischedfisttorevealtheremainis。Ididhesawcouldbeproperlymended。
&tently,hisexpressiabsolutecethatIcoulddoanything。Thatlookstirredmemories。IexamihgreatihebrokenpiemyhandsasIturhepastinmymind。
WhenIwasseven,I’dgoomyfather’sofficeaftersberday。MyfatherwasclearlythebestdoctorwithinathousahesmallOhioRivertoelived。Healwaysastonishedme—andhispatients—bythethingshecoulddo。Heotoeverwasthematterwithahecouldalsobreakahorse,carveatopandslidedownLongHilloandingup!Ilikedtohangaroundhiswaitingroomandhearpeoplecallme“littleDodIlikedtheatientsalwayslookedbetterwhehisoffice。
Butonthisday,whenIwasseven,mypurposewastoseemybestfriend,JimmyHardesty。Hehadn’tbeeninschoolforthreedays,andhismotherhadsentwordtomyfather’sshejustmightbringJimmyiortoday。
&helastoftheafternooshadgone,Jimmyhadstillheraofftomakehousecalls。Helikedtohavemewithhim,becausehelikedtotellstorieswhewasnearlysevenwhenwefinished。Aswestartedhome,myfathersaidsudde’sgoupandy。”Ifeltsquirmywithgratitude,thatmyfatherwasdoingthisjusttopleaseme。Butwheoftheoldgraystoherewasalightiairsbadowahebackportbeasoftrouble。
Myfatherpulledthecarrightintothedooryard。Alice,Jimmy’soldersister,ingoutofthehouseandthrewherarmsaroundmyfather,dshakingandtryingtotalk。“Oh,Doc。Jimmy’sdying!Dad’sgalloverthetylookingforyou。Thankgoodnessyou’rehere。”
Myfatherneverraosaytherewasohurry。Ifyouhadtohurry,itwastoolate。ButhetoldAlicetoletgooffhim,ahen。Ifollowedthemthroughtheyeasty-smellingkitdupthenarrow,darkhallstairs。Jimmywasbreathiandmadeahigh,airysound。Hehadmoundsofquiltspiledoverhim,sothatIcouldbarelyseehisfathefliglightofthekerosenelamps。Helookedallwornoutandhisskinglistened。
Hismothersaid,“Oh,Doc。Helpus。Itwasjustalittlethisafteredthisterribles>
IhadneverseenJimmy’smotherronooodbehihherhandsonmyshoulders,asmyfatherlisteoJimmy’schest。Hefixedahypodermidheldthehelight。Iwasthatitwasthemiracleweallmusthave。MyfathergaveJimmytheshot。HethengotagauzepadfromhisbladputitoverJimmy’smouth。Hebentoverhimaobreathewithhim。Nooroomandtherewasnoothersoueadypushingofmyfather’sbreathandJimmy’shigh,wheezingresponse。
Thensuddenlyaslightheawfulsoundofmyfather’sbreathihismother’shandstightenonmyshouldersandknew,assheksomethinghadsmyfatherkeptintoJimmy’slungs。Afteralongtime,Mrs。Hardestywehebed,putherhandonmyfather’sarmandsaid,veryquietly,“He’sgone,Doeaway。Myboy’snotwithusamyfatherwouldnotmove。
Mrs。Hardestytookmebythehandthedow。ShesatinarodAligasforlornasI’veeverseenanybodylook,threwherselfoher’slap。Iwentoutontothepordsatdowepintheess。Iwantedoseeorhearme。