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第13章“真好看”她说

&iful”SheSaid

佚名Anonymous

&houghtthatIuoodher。Shealwaysseemedsofarawayfromme。Ilovedher，ofcourse。WesharedmutuallovefromthedayIwasborhisworldwithabashedheadauresbecauseofthehardlabormymh。FamilymembersandfriendswriheirhedisfiguredbabyIwas。TheyallentedonhowmuchIlookedlikeabeat-upfootballplayer。ButhoughtIwasbeautiful。Hereyestwihsplendoraheuglybabyinherarms。Herfirstgraiful。”Shesaid。

Beforefinalexamsinmyjunihschool，shedied。Sevenyearsago，herdnosedNanawithAlzheimer’sdisease。Sevenyearsago，ourfamilybecameexpertsonthisdiseaseas，slowly，welosther。

Shealmeeheyearspassed，thewordsshespokebecamefewerailfihingatall。Wewereluckytogetoneoalwordoutofher。Itwasthenourfamilyknewshewasheend。

Aboutaweekorsobeforeshedied，shelosttheabilitiesforherbodytofunatall，aorsdeovehertoahospice。Ahospicewherethosewhoenteredwould。

ItoldmyparentsIwaoseeher。Ihadtoseeher。Myuntrollablecuriosityhadtakenastepabovemygut-wrengfear。

Mymhtmetothehospicetwodaysaftermyrequest。Mygrawoofmyauhereaswell，butallhungbathehallwayasIenteredNana’sroom。Shewassittinginabig，fluffyexttoherbed，slouchedover，eyesshut，mouthnumblyhahemorphineingherasleep。Myeyesdartedarouthewindows，theflowers，andthewayNanalooked。Iwasstruggliotakeitallin，knowingthatthiswouldbethelasttimeIeversa>

Islowlysatdownaher。Itookherlefthainmine，brushingaswaylockofgoldenhairawayfromherfaymouthtospeakbutnothi。Iotgetoverhowawfulshelookedsittingthere，helpless。

&happelehandedarouerandfighter。Hervoiwhatsouhowl。Sheseemedtinpain。Andthen，shespoke。

“Jessiasday。Myof4，2son-in-laws，1daughter-in-law，and6grand，shek>

Atthatmoment，itwaslikesomeonewasshowingafamilyfilmstripinmyhead。Isatizing。Isawheratmyfourteeals。Isawherbringingmerosesahpride。Isadanourkitfloor。IsawherpointingatherownwrielliwasfromherthatIiedmybigdimples。IsawherplayihusgrandkidswhiletheotheradultsateThanksgivingdinner。IsawhersittingwithmeinmylivingroomatChristmastimeadmiringhtlydecoratedtree。Itheherasshewas。。。andIcried。

Iknewshewouldneverseemyfinalseal。Iknewshewouldneverseemecheerforaballgame。IknewshewouldhmeandadmireourChristmastreeagain。Iknewshewoofftomyseniorprom。Iknewshewraduatefromhighscheetmarried。AndIknewshewouldhedaymyfirstchildwasborn。Thismadetearaftertearrolldo>

Butaboveall，IcriedbecauseIfinallyknewhowshehadfeltthedayIhadbeenborn。Shehadlhwhatshesawosideaheinsideandsa>

Islowlyreleasedherhandfrommineahetearsstainingherdmiood，leanedover，kissedher，andsaid，“Youlookbeautiful。”

我从来都不认为我很了解她。她好像一直离我很远。毫无疑问，我爱她。从我出生那天我们就分享这份爱。我带着一个扭曲的脑袋和一张丑陋的面容来到这个世界，这些只是因为母亲的难产。家人和朋友都皱着鼻子看着我这个丑小孩。他们都评论我像一个挨了打的足球队员。但是她不。祖母觉得我很漂亮。她看着怀里的这个丑小孩，眼睛里闪着幸福的光芒。她说她的第一个孙女“很美”。

在我高一期末考试前，祖母去世了。七年前，医生诊断她患了老年痴呆症。于是，我们的家人都成了这种病的专家，渐渐的，她离开了我们。

她只能断断续续地说话。几年后，她的话越来越少，到最后她一句话也说不出来了。我们很幸运能听到她偶尔的话语。之后家人都明白她就要走了。

祖母去世前大约一周，她全身僵硬，无法自理了。于是医生决定把她送到特护院。这个地方人一旦进去就永远不可能出来了。