第15章被遗忘的时光(9)
一只猫头鹰静悄悄地从山头俯冲而下,却在月色下如火光闪过。一只蟋蟀在草丛中尖声歌唱,我不由得想起了诗人和音乐家——贝多芬的《月光奏鸣曲》和莎士比亚笔下的《威尼斯商人》中洛伦佐的话:“月光沉睡在这岸边多么迷人!我们要坐在这里让音乐之声,潜入我们的耳内。”我不清楚他们的诗篇与音乐是否与蟋蟀的歌声相似,在某种程度上可以算做月的声音。想到这些,城市生活带给我的昏乱心绪,便在夜的宁静中消失了。
恋人和诗人在夜里能寻找到更深奥的生活意义。其实,我们都爱问一些深奥的问题——关于我们的祖先、我们的命运。我们只想纵容这些永远找不到答案的谜团,不喜欢那些主导着白天世界的、没有情感的几何教科书。在夜里,我们都成为哲学家和神秘家。
当月亮升起之时,我们放慢思想,让它追随天堂的脚步。不经意间,一种魔力就会遍布全身。我们会敞开情感之门,让白天被理智束缚的那部分思绪自由奔涌。我们能跨越遥远的时空,听远古猎人的细语,看久远时代恋人与诗人们眼中的世界。
月圆月缺,总是牵挂着我们的心绪。当月亮升起之时,我们放慢思想,让它追随天堂的脚步。
ThereisahillnearmyhomethatIoftenight。Thehecityisafar-offmurmur。InthehushofdarkIsharetheessofcridtheceofowls。ButitisthedramaofthemooIetosee。Forthatrestoresiandclaritythatthedstoofreely。
FromthishillIhavewatymoonsrise。Eaehaditsownmood。Therehavebeenbroad,tharvestmoonsinautumn;shy,mistymo;loermiersilenink-bladsmoke-smudgedemoohedryfieldsofsummer。Each,likefinemusic,excitedmyheartandthencalmedmysoul。
Moongazingisaoprehistoritersthemoonoverheadwasasunerri。Theykevery29daysitbeefull-belliedandbrilliant,thensiddied,andtheheykhewaxingmerandhigheroverheadaftereachsugsuhewaningmooereaightuntilitvahesuohaveuhemoon’spatternsfromexperiebeenaprofoundthing。
Butwe,wholiveindoors,havelosttactwiththemoon。Theglarehtsaofpollutiosky。Thoughmenhavewalkedogrowslessfamiliar。Fewofussaywhenthemht。
Still,ittugsatourmiedlyehefullmoon,hugeandyellowoverthehorizon,lessbuttostarebackatitsandingpresehemoonhasgiftstobestowupoch。
IlearitsgiftsoneJulyeveniains。Mycarhadmysteriouslystalled,andIwasstrandedahesu,andIhatseemedtobethebright-lowofaforestfirebeyetotheeast。Suddeselfseemedtoburstiherisingmoon,hugeandredandgrotesquelymishappeahesummeratmosphere,loomedupoutofthewoods。
Distortedthusbythehotbreathofearth,themooempereda。Dogsatnearbyfarmhousesbarkednervously,asifthisstrahadwakenedevilspiritsintheweeds。
Butasthemooheridgeitgatheredfirmnessandauthority。Itsplexiongedfromred,te,togold,toimpassiveyellow。Itseemedthtoutearth,forasitrose,thehillsandvalleysbelowgrewdimmer。Bythetimethemoonstoodclearofthehorizon,fulldroundandthecolorofivory,thevalleysweredeepshadowsinthelahedogs,reassuredthatthiswasthefamiliarmoon,st。Andallatoadjoyclosetolaughter。
&ookanhour。Moonriseisslowahsubtleties。Towatchit,wemustslipintoanolder,morepatieime。Towatheristofindanunusualstillhinourselves。inationsbeeawareofthevastdistancesofspace,theimmensityoftheearthandhugeimprobabilityofourowence。Wefeelsmallbutprivileged。
Moonlightshowsusnoneoflife’sharderedges。Hillsidesseemsilkenaheosstillaslight。Inmoonlightwebeelessg,moredrawnts。
Andoddthingshappeninsuents。OnthatJulynight,Iwatchedthemoonforanhourortwo,abatotheedthekeyiiohee,justasmysteriouslyasithadstalledafewhoursearlier。Idrovedowainswiththemoononmyshoulderandpeamyheart。
&entmoon。Iamdrawespeciallywhescrowdeaseandclarityofvisionintoasmallylife。Thishappehefall。ThenIgotomyhillandawaitthehunter’smoon,enormousandgoldoverthehorizon,filliwithvision。
Anowlswoopsfretop,brightasflame。Acricketshrillsinthegrass。Ithisandmusis。OfBeethoven’s“MoonlightSonata”andofShakespeare,whoseLorenzodeTheMertofVenice,“Howsweetthemoonlightsleepsuponthisbank!Herewillwesitahesoundsofmusiourears。”Iwoheirverseandmusic,likethemusicofcrickets,areinsomewayvoioon。Withsuycitifiedeltiofthenight。
Loversasfinddeepermeaningatnight。ttoposedeeperquestions—abiinies。Weindulgeiherthanintheimpersohatgoverworld。Webeephilosophersandmystics。
Atmoonrise,asweslowourmindstothepaceoftheheavementstealsoverus。Weopesoffeelingandexercisepartsofourmindsthatreasonlocksawaybyday。Wehear,acrossthedistances,murmursofaerahevisiosandlago。